Tuesday, May 31, 2011

No More!

Some people just suck. They just plain old suck. They don’t give a darn about anyone but themselves and they will gladly use up anyone they can in order to get something for themselves. They will float along all through life just taking and squeezing what they can from everyone around them. They will use a person up before the host even realizes it, often leaving the host so wiped out, they can’t help but be sick.

Women are notorious for putting up with mean spirited people like this. We have a forgiving soul that will let this piece of crap walk back into our lives time after time, not even realizing all the internal damage the asshole is causing. We will listen to him when he says how sorry he is, and how he would do better if we would only do something differently. This is the point where our brains ought to act like a car that’s just been thrown into park while doing 55 on the highway. “Crunck! Croink! Clonk!” And we should be able to say to ourselves, “Wait a minute here? He’s the one who was trying to choke me and he says I am wrong?” A look of total disbelief will cross his face when you stand up for yourself. If you defend yourself, he will get this look that goes even beyond a look you have ever seen cross his brow. He will be so very mad because he is losing the one thing he wanted so badly… power. When you stand up for yourself, you take back the reins to your life.

He won’t be able to call you stupid anymore and you believe it. Don’t believe it! That’s what he wants you to believe so you’ll turn to him on even the simplest things. “How do I boil these hotdogs?” “How much water can I put in the tub?” “Can I go swimming?” These are all things even the most base person can comprehend, but he wants you to believe you can’t. He wants you to believe that if you so much as think your own thought, it will blow up in your face so that you will have to have his help to clean up the mess. He’s wrong. He’s wrong. HE’S WRONG!! He knows it too, that’s why he has to keep you believing you don’t have a clue.

If you ever get wise to him, then his whole world starts to crumble. He can’t put the pieces back soon enough for you not to see through the ruse.

Why do we women and sometimes men, put up with crap like this? We would tell our best friend to get out of the same situation, but not us at the moment. Why? Because we don’t want to be considered a failure. He has put it in our head that everyone is just watching and waiting for us to fail so they can clap their hands and poke their fingers at us. He even makes us feel like our families are waiting for the ship to sink. Guess what, they are not. He will do his best to push us as far away from friends and family as he possibly can. Why? Because they see what an ass he is! They know how he is twisting our minds so that we will be everything he wants us to be. My question here is this. Can someone like that even be happy? If we became exactly what he desired, would he then be happy? I don’t think so. I think he would still be a miserable blankity blank because that’s what he’s good at. It’s all he knows. Oh, and if he’s turned you against your friends and family, search your soul for the truth, because anything he told you was probably a lie. Talk to them. I bet they will completely understand and welcome you to them with open arms.

Well, I say no more! I am a strong woman who has made it many years without the help of any man, and I will continue to do so. Yes, he tried hard to break down my self-esteem, and this is not the first time it’s happened. It is the last though. I will be happy within my own heart. I will continue to show my boys just how strong their Momma is. I refuse to be someone’s throw rug any more. God will see me through. He has been with me through it all and He will continue to guide me through all of this. I can be a success at whatever I want to be. I don’t have to listen to all of the negative comments placed in my head by any non-believer. I’m not stupid! I’m not ugly! I’m not someone’s punching bag! I am worthy of great things! I am smart! I am a good Momma! I’m a good person! I am God’s child and He only wants greatness for me! I will repeat this mantra for as long as it takes for me to believe it. I deserve to be happy. Period.


Monday, May 30, 2011


I am tired tonight. Husband walked out tonight after a bit of an explosion, and that's just fine.  Me and my boys are happier without being fussed at all the time for things we can't help.  Now I can go to bed and wake up as early as I want to to write.  Woop woop!


Sunday, May 29, 2011

Before Women Had Wings

Awesome chat with Connie Mae Fowler about her movie on OWN network.  It was a brilliant movie and I thoroughly enjoyed chatting with her about it while watching it.  She is such an inspiration to me.  I hope I can some day be as good an author as she is.  Sometimes I feel like I shouldn't even continue to write, but she inspires me to keep on doing it because that's what I am supposed to be doing.  I am a writer!  I need to write!  God wants me to write!  I will continue writing!  Someone will start buying my books soon.  I just know it!  I am a writer!


Connie Mae Fowler

Before Women Had Wings by Connie Mae Fowler is showing again today on OWN.  Connie Mae will be having a live chat on her fan page at http://www.facebook.com/pages/Connie-May-Fowler-the-fan-page/164385260276780

Looking forward to being there!


Saturday, May 28, 2011

My books

I sure wish people would start buying my books.  It seems to be an issue of not having it in their hands to hold.  You buy it and it downloads to your pc, phone, or kindle.  Maybe one day, I will check my sales reports and bamm it will be selling like hotcakes.  Until then, I guess I should focus on baking bread for sale and teaching art classes.


The Rite

The Rite is a very good movie.  Anthony Hopkins is of course brilliant, but the scope of his character in this one is just awesome.  He goes from his soft rich tones to this demonic whisper then chanting like an auctioneer as he is possessed by a demon.  Having taken stage makeup at JSU with Freddy Clements I know the work involved in creating the looks he wore.  It was splendid.  He was his usual pallid self, then went into this reddish, purple then burnt appearing face that seemed to bubble as his student attempted to cast the demon out.  It is not a movie for the faint of heart, but it is brilliant.


Friday, May 27, 2011


Even writers must stop to eat every now and then.  And watch TV.  LOL  I will be watching The Rite.  Will post about it later!


Thursday, May 26, 2011

New book

I had an idea today for a new book.  It's going to be a historical fiction which my husband will help me with writing.  He is a HUGE historian and is all over the idea.  He will help ensure I get all my facts correct.  ;-)  I have also been cooking a lot lately.  I've always enjoyed cooking and as a matter of fact in my young adult series two of the main characters run a catering business.  Lately I have been a whirlwind in the kitchen, pulling out all the stops!  My boys, all of them, my sons and husband, are enjoying it thoroughly.  I love working with different characters and their recipes.  It's great thinking like my characters.  Gives me an opportunity to be someone else for a moment.  I can let my souffles always turn out in my books!  LOL!

Happy Reading and Writing!

Tuesday, May 24, 2011


My husband and I stop by this 1870s house yesterday.  It was amazing at the architecture that was put into this old house and I instantly began imagining the lives the lived there.  It was a big house for those days with a large living room, large master bedroom, a kitchen and a pantry that we could imagine meat hanging in it to dry.  It also had an upstairs that from the looks of things ran the length of the house.  There was an original door knob that let us know someone had not lived there since probably the 1940s.  We felt like it must have been used to raise their family, but no one else had wanted it after they died.  So sad to see them just sit there.  It was beautiful in its day and quite the show palace as most people during that time couldn't have afforded such a nice place.  I found an owl feather there and could truly feel my Indian roots smiling at me for appreciating such a find.  Thank you, Lord!


Friday, May 20, 2011

New Avenue

I am daring to start an new adventure in my life.  I am going to teach art classes.  I have always wanted to teach art, but never had the guts to do so.  After my friend Brandy asked me to do so, I thought about it and have decided, yes, I will teach art.  I am excited to start this new adventure.  I will continue to write as well as read and posts about that.  I look forward to writing about my art teaching experience!  Have a great day!  I thank the Lord for all of my many blessings.


Wednesday, May 18, 2011

What I'm Up To

First of all let me say welcome to my blog!  Next let me be completely honest.... I'm new to the blogging scene.  I want to connect with other readers and writers who want to talk about what they are currently reading or writing. 

I am currently rereading Stephen King's Needful Things.  My husband and I are both reading it and are enjoying discussing it each day.  King is simply brilliant.  He uses just the right names for all of his characters so that their personalities shine through before the reader even gets to know them.  It's also amazing how well he takes people's ordinary behaviours and turns them into such sinister behaviors when taken to extremes.   

Currently, I am working on the 3rd novel of my Paint World series.  I have the first two already available from Amazon ebooks.  It's a series about a group of brothers with some extraordinary talents of painting, cooking, and helping others.  In the third of the series the boys make some important discoveries.  I am also working on another women's fiction with an incredibly strong woman who has to face many trials just to survive!

Happy reading and writing!